I'm ridiculous.

I really dislike classes and work right now. Work feels like I'm running around in pointless circles and classes are eating my lunch. I just want to play all day and hang out with people. Sigh.
I've noticed lately that I am a very unkind person, even if I don't verbalize my thoughts. And my prayer life and study life (the kind where the Bible ISN'T a text book...what a concept!) are lacking. This environment of all religion classes, all the time, tends to wear down my desire to seek God for my heart because most of the time, I have to seek Him for my GPA.
I don't think I would ever make it through seminary. Really.
But anyway, back to being unkind. Have you ever noticed yourself beginning to say something, and then you realize you're saying it about someone, and then you spend the rest of the day kicking yourself because you're no better than you think they are? I'm such a hypocrite. I don't understand why I just can't stop gossiping about people and verbalizing how much they irritate me and telling people why I think this person shouldn't be in that position because of such and such and such...I play back what I said earlier in the day right before I go to bed at night and I put my foot in my mouth every single time. I am no better than they are, and yet I think I am in my own little world.
I'm ridiculous. Prayers that the ridiculousness would begin to be conquered by the Word and the tact to bite my tongue would be very appreciated.


The wonder of the cross
Breathe in deeper now
Breathe in the wonder of the cross
I don't wanna move...