No matter how many times I am woken up at 4 AM by loud noises, I will forgive.
No matter how many times I am forgotten, I will forgive.
No matter how many times I find my food is missing, I will forgive.
No matter how many times I have to buy the toilet paper, I will forgive.
No matter how many times I clean and sanitize the front room and the bathroom by myself, I will forgive.
No matter how many times I overhear gossip about myself or my friends, I will forgive.
No matter how many times I am belittled or snapped out, I will forgive.
No matter how many times I feel unappreciated, I will forgive.
No matter how many times I am the only person to take out the trash without being asked, I will forgive.
No matter how many times I am made to feel naive, inadequate, or stupid by those who feel they have more experience or intelligence or maturity, I will forgive.
None of that matters when I consider that Jesus loves me as much as everyone else on this planet. None of that matters when I know that I am also guilty of being the one who hurts or belittles or is inhospitable about cleaning up after myself. These are the days that the Lord has made...I have very few of them...and so I will rejoice in my blessings and attempt to rejoice in the things that make me so angry or frustrated or sad that I just feel like giving up.
Truly loving someone is hard. Really hard. Especially when you're living in a room the size of some peoples' closets.
'Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, "Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?"
Jesus answered, "I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times."'
Matthew 18:21-22
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You know my heart goes out to you right now because I understand the difficulty of forgiving in the circumstances you are finding yourself in and I just pray that you continue to seek Christ in these times and continue to pour love and forgiveness on people that may not always be deserving, know the wrong they have done, or the hurt they have caused. Christ will give you the comfort and peace you need to keep going.
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